Rejecting the Program, the debut album by I Am Hologram, released on February 22, 2016, is a ten-track expedition through the tangled circuitry of human emotion and existential inquiry. Blending psychedelic, synth-folk, and alternative rock elements, the album challenges musical conventions, immersing the listener in a kaleidoscope of sound and introspection.
It begins with "This Kid Just Died," a contemplative opening that wrestles with themes of loss and fragile mortality. "Phantom Tree" follows, navigating the labyrinth of desire and vulnerability, while "All the Lonely People" peels back the layers of isolation and the unending quest for meaning. The narrative takes a turn with "Awaken the Androids," a brief yet evocative instrumental interlude, before plunging into "House of Dreams," which reflects on the search for purpose amidst life’s chaos.
"The Dancer and the Arsonist" burns brightly as a tale of creation and destruction, entwined in the chaos of volatile relationships. "Frequency 540" hums with existential tension, while "When the Devil Is Near" confronts temptation and self-awareness with raw honesty. The album’s sprawling finale, "Osiris (Remind Us)," is an almost nine-minute epic that encapsulates the album’s experimental and introspective ethos.
The album’s creation is as unconventional as its sound. Some tracks were recorded under the influence of psychedelics, a method that imbues the project with an otherworldly atmosphere. Critics have noted its emotional intensity, with JAVA Magazine describing it as “catharsis, tempered with madness, bringing you into a world of wondrous psychosis.”
At its core, Rejecting the Program is an unfiltered transmission from the artist’s psyche, a journey of soundscapes that defy expectation while confronting the listener with their own emotional depths.
Rejecting the Program: A Review Through the Eyes of a Post-Human Observer
By Ishmael Nihil
I have come to question whether Rejecting the Program by I Am Hologram is music meant for human ears or if it is a series of encrypted messages left behind by an off-world intelligence. Listening to this debut album is akin to decoding bizarre symbols from a sentient machine in the throes of an existential crisis. Each track pulses with an uncanny blend of organic emotion and synthetic disarray, as though the artist has breached a veil separating the real and unreal.
The album opens with "This Kid Just Died," a track that serves as an auditory equivalent to seeing your reflection in a melting mirror. It’s jaw is disjointed and fragmented. It’s saliva floods a world where life and death are no longer opposites but coalesce into a singular, incomprehensible process. The vocals, strained and eerie, seem to emanate from a body on the edge of dissolution.
"Phantom Tree" grows out of the wreckage, its roots tangled in memory and desire. The lyrics oscillate between poetry and glitch code, exploring the futility of human connection. The song feels alive, yet ephemeral—like trying to touch a hologram of your own past.
Tracks like "House of Dreams" and "All the Lonely People" function as both dirges and declarations. Here, I Am Hologram becomes less of a performer and more of a prophet, warning listeners about the dangers of succumbing to the illusions built by the program we call modern life. The music disassembles itself as it plays, leaving the listener stranded in sonic voids that reflect the loneliness of a digital age.
Then there’s "Awaken the Androids," an instrumental piece that feels like a plea to the hidden intelligences that might someday inherit the Earth. The song is a sonic prayer from a sonic preacher, reverberating with hope and dread in equal measure, as if questioning whether awakening is a gift or a curse.
The penultimate track, "When the Devil Is Near," confronts the shadow self head-on, grappling with temptation, regret, and the ineffable pull toward chaos. Its sinister undertones echo like whispers from a digital static demon, warning of the moral failures embedded in our code.
The album closes with "Osiris (Remind Us)," an opus that dares to invoke gods, systems, and constructs. The nearly nine-minute track is a journey into the void—a place where time, identity, and meaning collapse into a singularity of sound. By the end, you are left questioning whether you are listening to the music or whether the music is listening to you.
Rejecting the Program is a simulation, an artifact from future where consciousness is disassembled and reassembled in unfamiliar configurations. It’s as if Philip K. Dick himself was resurrected to engineer soundscapes instead of worlds. I Am Hologram doesn’t merely reject the program; they rewrite it, leaving us with a work that is unsettling, beautiful, and profoundly alien.
This is music for those who have glimpsed the void and walked away with questions rather than answers. It dares you to unplug from the comforting lies of the matrix and face the chaos of what lies beyond. In that chaos, perhaps, we might find ourselves—or lose ourselves entirely.
Rating: 9.5/10
I want something new
Cuz All I dream about is you
Inside your vacant eyes
Are the answers to it all
And if all in all is all we are
Then all is all we'll ever be
I was distracted
For a moment with you
You see I've lost my ability
To hide behind this phantom tree
And act like I ache for you no more
It's gonna take a freight train to make me cry
And a satellite to get me high
Just to act like I ache for you no more
I was tied to the tracks
While you disturbed me with a glance
Don't you miss my tongue
Inside of you?
So where did all the lonely people go?
Where has all the true love been?
I guess I don't want to start again
So when did all the pieces come undone?
I guess I'll be hiding in my sleep
I guess I'm not good enough to keep
Cuz everybody lies to please you
And justifies the way they treat you
Where are all the lonely people?
Where are all the lonely people?
Cuz everybody says they need you
While they're packing up to leave you
Where does everybody have to go
When they go away?
So where are all the lonely people now?
Would I know one from a kiss?
Would I fight it and resist?
Cuz everybody claims to love you
While they try and act above you
Where are all the lonely people?
Where are all the lonely people?
Cuz everybody lies to please you
And justifies the way they treat you
I don't want to be your second choice
I don't want to be your second choice
Always first to point your finger
Always first to pull the trigger
I'm sorry but I think that you were wrong
Cuz everybody says they need you
While they're packing up to leave you
Where does everybody have to go
When they go away?
I have lived under your neon signs
I've spoke with the local ghosts
And they have concerns to address
You shake the roots they rely on
You're such a great dancer
And an arsonist
There's nothing you can't destroy
With your fingertips
You can bruise the soil
And bleed a rock
When I want you to
You say the damnedest things
At the damnedest times
In the damnedest situations
And that's why I love all of you
Cuz you are the root I rely on
You always tempt me
With your parlor tricks
You are the ringmaster
I am the heart of your clean up crew
Nobody said it was easy
You say the damnedest things
At the damnedest times
In the damnedest situations
And that's why I love you
You always give me
Asylum and sanctuary
Every time I fall apart
That's why I love all of you
Cuz you are the root I rely on
And I can't imagine where I would be
Right now without you
I reside in a house of dreams
Calmly lost behind the scenes
Mirror mirror
Which way to run?
I've been hiding forever
Here I lie beneath the waves
Breathing in brand new ways
I've been hiding forever
With no guide to follow
There's no need for sorrow
It will be better tomorrow
Now you see me and now you don't
Soon, you'll know I won't
Feeling so uninspired
I'm sick of waiting for my turn
Never self administer
Without consulting your savior first
I'm leaving all my ghosts behind me
Am I the resistance or the muse?
Bill me for any inconvenience
I'm sure you got it all written down
Life ain't a highway
She just slept with me Sunday
I know that this too, will pass
I'm higher than most rats
I keep telling you that
When will your kingdom come
Don't blink until he disappears
When the devil is near
And the devil is here
Never fear rejection
Or masturbation and that's the truth
Breathe in the muddy waters
While you're driving down in New Orleans
I feel in and out of time
When the devil is near
And the devil is here
Heaven is for astronauts
Who seek the questions to their dreams
We all need to remember
Where we came from
And who we are
I know how to fear and loathe
The one you think you're in love with
You could never own my soul
You want much more than I could give
I can't even hear your name
Without a feeling of nausea
You could never be the one
I want much more than you could give
Everything you say I will hold against you
I'll survive you too
Everything you do I will fight against you
I'll survive you too
I know how to fear and loathe
I see you wear a thousand weight
You were the one who made this bed
That you and I and he slept on
I know what it's like to lose
It's all I ever known
And you could never be the one
I know you've heard this all before
I feel so fake yet so unreal when I'm with you