Released on August 16, 2019, Not All of Us Are Human is a 12-track journey into the depths of existence, crafted by Arizona-based musician Richard Nihil under the moniker I Am Hologram. Blending alternative rock, psychedelic textures, and experimental soundscapes, the album is a meditation on the human condition, existential crises, and the unseen forces that shape us. Recorded at Lava Lake Studio, it defies conventional boundaries, offering an immersive and thought-provoking listening experience.
The album opens with "Frequency 972," a spacey noise piece that acts as a beacon, pulling listeners into a dimension where introspection reigns and the rules of reality blur. It sets the stage for "Murmur," a reflective piece dissecting fractured relationships, with poignant lines like "You and I, we were once enemies... Floating on the surface, just beneath the tide." Tracks like "Once, I Was" delve into personal transformation and growth, as Nihil muses, "Once I was miniature, I could fit into the palm of your hand... Now my thoughts are too big for me."
"Where the Light Creeps In" captures the feeling of existential searching with lyrics like "I'm lost at sea, I don't breathe enough... It's getting hard to find where the light creeps in," while the sprawling instrumental title track, "Not All of Us Are Human," becomes the album’s centerpiece—a near seven-minute fever dream that pulsates with an undeniable presence, consuming the listener entirely.
The album’s sharp social commentary emerges in "Null/Void," a critique of digital existence, with the biting observation, "Everything is digital, our lives are null and void." "I Beg to Differ" challenges conventional thinking with the line, "You're hypnotized, you think that makes you safe, but I beg to differ," pushing listeners to question their perceptions and embrace self-reflection.
Closing the album is "God Speed John Glenn," a hauntingly poetic meditation on space, mortality, and the human experience. With the line, "When it’s time to take my place amongst the stars, I will leave a trail for you to find," Nihil bids farewell, leaving listeners adrift in the cosmos, pondering the journey they’ve just undertaken.
Not All of Us Are Human isn’t merely a collection of songs—it’s an alien transmission from the depths of human experience, unflinchingly honest and deeply introspective. Nihil’s ability to weave profound themes into dynamic soundscapes ensures the album resonates long after its final notes fade. It’s not here to comfort you; it’s here to challenge you, provoke you, and remind you of the uncharted territories within yourself. This is I Am Hologram at his boldest, his most daring, and his most human—even if not all of us are.
"Not All of Us Are Human" – Album Review by Ishmael Nihil
The needle drops. A low hum buzzes through the speaker like a machine translating the language of dead gods. I Am Hologram stands in the shadows, a spectre wired into the mainframe, spilling transmissions from the void. The album, Not All of Us Are Human, is an alien vivisection of the soul—stripped, gutted, and dissected with surgical precision.
The songs drip with static and sweat, each track a synapse firing wildly in the dark. "Murmur" stumbles in like a junkie confessing his sins in the back alley of a dream. Nihil whispers truths no one wants to hear: love, war, enemies, and the tide that pulls us all under. By the time “Once, I Was” kicks in, you’ve started to feel the burn. It’s not the flames of hell—it’s colder than that. The words unravel like stolen memories: "Miniature thoughts, too big for me now. Too heavy." Heavy indeed. Like carrying a body you aren’t sure is yours.
The title track is an interstellar broadcast. Seven minutes of sound folding in on itself like a collapsing star. It’s the sound of the first spaceship leaving Earth, or the last one coming back. No lyrics. Just a reminder that sometimes words get in the way of understanding.
Then the claws come out. “Null/Void” is the sermon on the screen, the preacher in a tinfoil hat broadcasting from a post-apocalyptic motel room. "Everything is digital, lives are null and void." The line burns like an old film reel catching fire mid-frame. You can almost smell the plastic melting.
But it’s the closer, “God Speed John Glenn”, that feels like the bullet to the brainstem. You’re left staring at the ceiling, wondering if the stars are real or just pinholes poked in the fabric of your hallucination. "I will leave a trail for you to find," Nihil croons, but you’re not sure if it’s a promise or a threat. Maybe it’s both.
Not All of Us Are Human is an album for the ghosts trapped in the meat, for the wires tangled in the veins. It’s not a comfortable listen. It’s a night spent crawling through an endless desert, unsure if the vultures are circling you—or if you’re circling them.
This is a record that demands you lose yourself to find yourself. And when you do, don’t be surprised if what you find isn’t human at all.
You and I
We were once enemies
We were once anemones
Floating on the surface
Just beneath the tide
You and I
We were moons that would collide
We were cells that would divide
Then I found the wormhole
I think about you often
I wonder where you are
I hope you found your way
I should have known
You had your own philosophies
On the way that things could have been
On the way that things should have been
I think about you all the time
I hope you found your way
Once I was miniature
I could fit in to the palm of your hand
Now my thoughts are too big for me
They consume me
But I know where to hide
And I know I'll be alright
Where I'm from is long behind me
I don't know me
But I'm the last of mine
And I know I'll be fine
I started a rumor just because I could
Suddenly I'm the only one who laughs
I started a rumor just because I could
I hide because I love my secrets
Once I was interesting
I forgive who I'm supposed to forget
Now that things are so much clearer now that you're gone
I can't wait to fly without the use of my spine
Once I was just like you
I spoke slowly like the radio buzz
When I was young
They came to me and made me swear
That I would give my life
To make everything all right
Help me I'm on fire
I'm lost at sea
I don't breathe enough
And I'm an 1/8th away
From deciding my fate
I've already said too much
I don't dream enough
I see the vultures smile
Waiting to pick me clean
They say don't look with your mind
You can feel with your bones
You can tell from their eyes
That something ain't right
Then along came the flood
And the victims of sin
Ain't too hard to find
That something ain't right
When the light goes away
In a moment undefined
In a field of mines
It's getting hard to find
Where the light creeps in
I'm lost in space
Writing letters to home
But it's been light years now
Since the last one sent
The day began with stars and waves
As the slaves slept in their caves
The breath I held was a universe
Which begged me not to sigh
All things were silent as the sun was unemployed
Everything is constant noise
Our lives are null and void
You're null and void
We race towards the light
In search of dreams we can't believe
The heartbeat that guides us all
Keeps us mystified
All we are are animals
Corrupt and paranoid
Everything is digital
Our lives are null and void
We're null and void
They dress you up in clothes
They think will keep you pacified
Then pills are administered to help you sleep at night
If you sign on the dotted line
The lords are overjoyed
Everything is constant noise
Our lives are null and void
We're null and void
Thoughts go by on my way back home
Disco eyes high in thin disguise
I slither through the rain
Soaked in wine
She is on his way
And I don't mind having nothing to say
Today's the day
To make amends
Or dig your hole deeper
Remember that time you saved me
Today's the day
To make amends
You're hypnotized
You think that makes you safe
But I beg to differ
Today's the day
To make amends
You spare the change
You think that makes you safe
But I beg to differ
Was I on time to my own funeral?
Breathe in me
I want to feel like a ghost
Then days away
I feel in tune with everyone
And as the light goes out it's time to dig another one
Am I divine?
I am naked and not alone
Return to me I can't do this on my own
And there's no telling what will happen now
It's undecided
And there's no telling who will lead us now
They're all in hiding
And there's no telling what will happen to me now
When it's time to take my place amongst the stars
I will leave a trail for you to find
And to waste this chance to be divine
Is to deny the gleam in the creators eye
Dear Warden, Good morning
I'm awake
We're displayed in the space before time
It's a vague place to spend a life
I try to relate to them
I try to believe in truth
I try to believe in love
When the sun breathes new life in me
I will leave a trail for you to find